(:

Monday, October 29, 2007

xx 11:14 AM

;

i just realise it today.
tht my bad tmeper is inherited from my mum.

apparently. her temper worsen after she went to work.
and ive noticed my temper becoming better after i went to work.
its how strange when things like this occur.
but i know tht my temper is still not very gd laa.
but now. i know why i ve got such kns temper :D

im trying to cherish every now and then.
trying not to mention anything bout tht.
i really hope tht i will not learn to appreciate only when ive lost someone or something.
time for reflection guys..

sometimes.
you will realise tht you dont need to shout out loud for her to know what are you talking bout.
sometimes.
you will realise tht you got someone to help you to be there for you when you need someone just to be there.
sometimes.
you will realise tht you have taken things for granted..

be glad. when you have everything you want and you need nw.

im afraid.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

xx 9:01 PM

:(

after one wave.
one more wave is here.

im very emo now.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know how.
i cant tell anyone.
but im really scared.

can someone teach me how?
wo zhen de hen pa.
zen me ban..

can someone tell me this IS a nightmare?
and tht everything will be alright tml..?

is god real?
i hope everything will be alright..
please.

amen.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

xx 11:27 PM

\

can time heal scars..?

i dont know.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

xx 6:31 PM

`

its been so long since i last blogged.
so many things happen..

i thought its gng to be over.
but more things came.
its like another wave came before this one goes down.
and they are totally draining me down.
ive got no much energy left to deal with these craps.
i am tired..

i duno which fairy have i annoyed.
but im really unlucky this month.
i dont know why.
soo many many unhappy things happen.
i just want to smile.
i just want to jump around freely.
i just want to play like theres no tml.
isit really tht hard?
why everyone is against me?

this semester dont seem to be good to me.
teachers and courses sucks.
whats more.
sp sucks.
should i regret?

i just want to let you know tht
no matter what.
i will stick to you. forever.
kae? (:

we will face it together.

following.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

xx 9:53 PM

`

好想找个人聊天.
但在msn上却找不到一个能让我倾诉的人.
突然间觉得自己好孤单. 好孤独哦..

谁可以帮我.
谁可以在我最需要的时候出现..
我快崩溃了.. ):

smile.

please.

xx 5:10 PM

/

i remembered last year.
i was playing tony's so called predict your love life poker cards.
i got so many red ones.
the sad ones..
many many before i find my mr right.

i knew these would happen.
but how to change..
when ive gotten so used to it for 17years alrdy.
im confused.
i dont know what to do now..

so stress. so fcuked up by life.
so many things waiting for me to do.
i dont know where to start..
haix..

i cant help but feeling so pessimistic once again.
even you cant change tht fact..

am i the right one..

kuduole.

shihuileide.

Friday, October 12, 2007

xx 11:11 PM

..

i din know i created so much unhappiness to you. again.
but i couldnt say sorry anymore..

isit tht i dont understand you enough.
or you dont understand me.
sometimes what i want is just simple things.
but i dont get them.
yet i nv blame you before..

is appreciation suppose to be brought to mouth.
is thts so. how many thank yous can i say to you every day.
its countless.. ni zhi dao mahx.

why am i always the one at fault.
why am i always the one who cry.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

xx 11:17 PM

had a really bad day.

i dont know why but i feel that e distance btw us are growing.
guess its becuz of time bahx.
mayb e longer time we spent with each other may cause greater distance between us.
quarrel doesnt always pull both parties together.
drifts. may happen..

i dont feel e feeling when i had before tht quarrel.
i love e feeling being hong by you.
your persistent trying.
trying to cheer me up. to make me happy.

yes. perhaps you are true.
im spoilt. spoilt by you.
but arent all girls desiring their bf to spoil them?
to hong them?
to treat them nice?
to say tht 3 words out of nowhere?

i want to get tht feeling again.
but it seems more and more impossible.

i know. im wilful.
i know. im stubborn.
but i just really hope i got someone to stand by me.
i know this is hard. i know its tough for you.
i know you are tired.

mayb you have tried hard enough.
mayb im e one whos making this everything worse.

but i really hope to get back the feeling i once so familiar with..

nashidekuaile..

Sunday, October 07, 2007

xx 11:08 PM

.

人是会累的.
我知道你哄了我这么久.
也该是时候累了..

不快乐是因为快乐过.

ugly duckling.